I have always been considered bad at school, or badly behaved in general, contributing to multiple calls home and multiple trips to the office. School, what used to be my least favorite place, where I struggled to meet deadlines, pay attention, or go a full school day without getting scolded, has turned into something I intend to pursue for years to come, even after I graduate in the Spring of 2021.
As I continue to learn and grow I’m still the same student I always have been-- running late and choosing to be outside on sunny days rather than inside finishing important work, I often look back and think of my time in grade school.
My rambunctiousness labeled me as a problem child and the teachers didn’t like me any more than I liked them. I think of how my time in grade school was impacted by being a young girl, undiagnosed with anxiety and ADHD, in a private school setting. After years and several awakenings later, I am still the same puckish girl with skinned up knees and ponytails. Thanks to the empowering, all-girl highschool I attended, I began to see myself as more worthy of a great education, but not completely capable until I came to ESU.
After graduating high school with a 2.89 and an insufficient desire to do any better, I came to a small campus that made me feel-- for the first time-- intelligent, and gave me a reason to try in school. I always dreamt of making small changes in the lives of those not afforded the same blessings as I had been. Once I joined The Bulletin, I saw myself as capable of making a change on campus and hopefully someday to society.
After being encouraged to apply for the managing editor position, based on my tendency to voice my dissatisfactions and ask intrusive questions, I began my journalism career with little to no experience.
I had always wanted to write but never saw it feasible. After joining the Bulletin and being amazingly supported by my peers and mentors, Margaret Mellott, Lucas Lord, Kyra Jumper, and the one and only, Sarah Spoon, and an incredibly helpful and patient professor, Max McCoy, I’m learning to channel my weaknesses into strengths and dreaming of greater goals.
During my time at The Bulletin I had the ability to come into contact with the most astounding people I ever could have imagined and had the privilege of telling their stories. I’m no longer discouraged by my aptitude test results claiming my talents were best used as a waitress or hair dresser, both great fields of work, but not what I want. I no longer want to be a social worker nor an elementary teacher, also incredibly challenging fields for hardworking empathetic people. I want to attend graduate school for investigative reporting, specifically social justice, and become an advocate for those in marginalized communities. I want to hold people of power accountable through my writing and continue to learn more about my strengths and shortcomings.
My impish nature, dissatisfaction with boring school, and curiosity have become my strength, which is good, because no matter how hard I strived to change I couldn’t. I have always had a bright future, but because of ESU and specifically The Bulletin, I know what I’m capable of achieving and plan to do so.